So it's 2:25 AM on my clock. Good morning, I guess? I was browsing through my Tumblr and decided I needed to see Peter Pan. To cut the long story short, I had a realization.
If my debut this July (or December) will push through, I would want the theme to be Peter Pan. Maybe because I want to remind myself to never grow up. It's ironic since I will be turning 18 and I. AM. GROWING. UP. Maybe I don't wanna forget how it feels like being a child. Too many people grow up. Too many people forget. And that's why too many people are sad. Growing up is a trap. And I don't want that. But I am forced to. Maybe a Peter-Pan-themed debut would be fun.
When I was younger, I hated the fact that Peter Pan didn't wanna grow up. I thought it was silly. I thought his idea of not growing up was plain stupid. But life gave me the answer to the question "Why didn't Peter Pan want to grow up?" Now I understand why. I wish I could go back. But there is no turning back. Like what Peter said, "Once you're grown up, you can never come back." I wish I knew back then what he meant by that. This is it now, I guess. There's no turning back.
The thought of growing up scares me. The thought that only a few months from now I will be turning 18 scares me. And that's when I started to realize that I am slowly growing up. When you start having sad thoughts more than happy thoughts, that's when you know you've grown up.
I've spent my entire life dreaming of Neverland.
Thursday, January 9, 2014
Thursday, January 2, 2014
2k14
And just like that it's 2014! Wow, what did I do with my life in 2013?
Every January 1st (or even the first week of January), everyone is so hyped and hopeful and everyone has this amazing motivation to change their ways for the better.
Well screw that. I only have one New Year's resolution for 2k14: STOP. GIVING. FUCKS.
Everyone fucked my feelings up last year and I won't let that happen again. If I should be a heartless bitch, then so be it. I'm just so tired of depending and expecting too much from anyone and being attached and end up all screwed up and disappointed.
It's like everyone has this special ability to just lead you on and let you expect more from them and when they realize that, bam! they will let you down.
So, cheers for a great year ahead! I have a feeling 2014 will be the best year yet! And here's to an awesome year without any fucks given.
Enjoy and have a blast!
Every January 1st (or even the first week of January), everyone is so hyped and hopeful and everyone has this amazing motivation to change their ways for the better.
Well screw that. I only have one New Year's resolution for 2k14: STOP. GIVING. FUCKS.
Everyone fucked my feelings up last year and I won't let that happen again. If I should be a heartless bitch, then so be it. I'm just so tired of depending and expecting too much from anyone and being attached and end up all screwed up and disappointed.
It's like everyone has this special ability to just lead you on and let you expect more from them and when they realize that, bam! they will let you down.
So, cheers for a great year ahead! I have a feeling 2014 will be the best year yet! And here's to an awesome year without any fucks given.
Enjoy and have a blast!
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