So it's 2:25 AM on my clock. Good morning, I guess? I was browsing through my Tumblr and decided I needed to see Peter Pan. To cut the long story short, I had a realization.
If my debut this July (or December) will push through, I would want the theme to be Peter Pan. Maybe because I want to remind myself to never grow up. It's ironic since I will be turning 18 and I. AM. GROWING. UP. Maybe I don't wanna forget how it feels like being a child. Too many people grow up. Too many people forget. And that's why too many people are sad. Growing up is a trap. And I don't want that. But I am forced to. Maybe a Peter-Pan-themed debut would be fun.
When I was younger, I hated the fact that Peter Pan didn't wanna grow up. I thought it was silly. I thought his idea of not growing up was plain stupid. But life gave me the answer to the question "Why didn't Peter Pan want to grow up?" Now I understand why. I wish I could go back. But there is no turning back. Like what Peter said, "Once you're grown up, you can never come back." I wish I knew back then what he meant by that. This is it now, I guess. There's no turning back.
The thought of growing up scares me. The thought that only a few months from now I will be turning 18 scares me. And that's when I started to realize that I am slowly growing up. When you start having sad thoughts more than happy thoughts, that's when you know you've grown up.
I've spent my entire life dreaming of Neverland.
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