A Random Thought.

A guy friend texted me last week. It was 10pm and I was sleepy but I texted back.

He told me that his girlfriend broke up with him but he's not gonna cry since he's a guy.

It's the first time this guy had his heart broken. Poor kid. He told me it hurts but he didn't want to cry because he's a guy. Yes, he emphasized that. He's a guy so he won't cry.

You know, I think it's stupid. The kind of mindset our society has impressed on us. "Guys are not supposed to cry." WHAT?! Just because he's a guy doesn't mean he has no heart or feelings anymore, right? I mean why don't they understand and accept the fact that IT'S OKAY TO CRY!

When you're hurt, cry. It's not an indication of weakness.

Since the time of our birth, crying has been an indication that we're alive.

Nothing is wrong with crying especially when you're hurt. Even Jesus wept.

It doesn't matter who and what you are, if you're hurt; cry.

And I Just Can't Help Myself.

I was dying a little bit inside every time I check my phone and I can't find your name.

"It's December first." I thought to myself. This will be the last time I'll wait for your text. If I don't get one, maybe it's because you don't want me anymore. And I just have to accept that.

I was okay. As the sun starts to set, I get the feeling of acceptance that maybe you don't want me anymore. And I was preparing myself for the goodbye I didn't want but was expecting.

I was alone in my room, trying to fall asleep for at least 15 minutes or so when I received a text. I wasn't expecting your name to come up.. but then it did.

My eyes got bigger. Shocked. My heart beat was faster than usual. And then I forgot about all the hurts I was feeling 3 days ago. Nothing mattered to me but you. I have to admit, I was falling and when I was about to let go, you grabbed my hand and said you're here now.

I didn't reply. I didn't want to, thinking you won't look for me again. But few minutes later you sent me a text, again. And I knew, I fell in love with you again. I don't know why I said again when I never really stopped.

I never thought it was possible; to fall in love even harder with you, harder than the way I already am in love with you.

No one ever made me feel this way except for you. Only you.