Hopeless and Giving Up.

Three years have passed since I had this desire. The moment I laid my eyes on the enormous display of the Blue Eagle, I knew right then and there that I want to go here and let this university shape me and form me in being the person I should be. Let this university train me and enhance my knowledge in the career and path I'd like to take.

Three years ago, this dream seemed so close, so achievable. It seemed so bare. It seemed like it was standing in front of me, smiling at me, waiting for me.

But now, this dream I eagerly desire seems so complex and inconceivable. But looking at how things are going right now, this ambition I have seems so far, so difficult to achieve. So impossible. It feels like I'm stuck in the spot where I was standing three years ago, not wanting to move, not even an inch. Not realizing that the dream that was once in front of me, waiting for me to grab it was slowly running away. And I stand in this spot, watching it slowly fade away.

As I come to think of it, it's not yet too late. Maybe I could still run after my dreams, maybe I could still reach them.

But I'm stuck. I can't move. I can't run after it. I can't reach my dreams.

I'm hopeless. I'm giving up.

I fell down. I'm now facing the ground.

And then I smiled because I realized that whenever I'm down, there's no other way but up.

So I'm smiling. I'm getting up. I'm getting ready to chase after my dreams. I still have time; and I won't let that time just pass by without me achieving something.

I'll be proving myself again; not to hear praises from people but to shed a tear or two when I pass the ACET.

Jesus. He's my inspiration. And I believe that when He says YES, nobody can say NO.

I'm dreaming big and I'm achieving it.

Watch me as I reach for my goal.

Watch me as I prove them all wrong.

Watch as my God work on me.

Watch as my God prepare the way for me.